Greetings from Texas! I'm here visiting Joshua and couldn't be happier. 4 weeks apart was WAY too long. I just couldn't take it any longer and decided to come out a few days early! While Joshua is in class during the day, Eden and I have been touring around the city, enjoying having the city life so close to our hotel room. I love living in suburbia, but sometimes it's so nice to enjoy a change of scenery (especially with a baby!)-- Starbucks, the library, parks and much more are all within walking distance. We enjoyed a weekend of good food, a trip to a museum, long naps and shopping. I'm here for a bit more and will return at the end of the month and we'll finally be done with all of this and will be reunited for good back home in Arizona.
I wanted to say how much I enjoyed doing the "Blog Once A Day in May" challenge. It really brought my love of blogging back after a creative drive spell during and post pregnancy. It's really easy to feel like you don't have a lot to "talk about" when you're a mom... But last night, Joshua and I had a big conversation about this topic and he literally asked me point blank "Are you still blogging?" It's like he just "knows" when I'm not. It's my therapy (and it's free!); it's my canvas to get out my thoughts and process them. When I'm not doing it, I miss it. But sometimes I can't really identify that my lack of blogging is the problem; like I said... cheap therapy! ;)
On a personal note, the last couple of weeks have been really, really hard. In addition to Joshua being gone, I've dealt with some major personal drama and have been the target of cyber bullying (down to being called the worst names known to man) all for stating my personal opinion online. I've learned, all over again, that people are really, really mean and the world is really, really dark. This is not my home. All of this has led to crawling into a really dark place where I've questioned myself and my self-worth and have dealt with all of the emotional issues that us girls deal with: am I enough? Do people really like me? Blah blah blah. My fear-of-man issues have been having to be dealt with. I have to remind myself that what I did, and what I stood up for, was truth and that as Christians we are not promised a peaceful, harmonious life. This is such a stretch for me! I just want harmony.all.the.time. Being here with Joshua has been so good for my soul. It has refreshed me and reminded me of all that truly matters: my family. People will come and go in our lives and those who matter will stick around. God is so faithful and I am constantly reminded of how He is always with me no matter what.
I love you readers and love having this place to share my heart.
You are the best xo
