I have found that almost every autumn, I experience huge change in my life. It's almost ironic that it happens during the time of year when the leaves change and the season changes. It's so predictable, I know it's going to come... just like the weather turning cooler and my sweaters in the closet coming out of hiding.
"And even when the trees have just surrendered, to the harvest time
Forfeiting their leaves in late September, and sending us inside
Still I notice you when change begins, and I am braced for colder winds
I will offer thanks for what has been and what's to come; You are autumn."
I will offer thanks for what has been and what's to come; You are autumn."
-- "Every Season," by Nichole Nordeman
Last fall, only 3 weeks after giving birth to Eden, one of my closest friends here moved away. And not just an hour away, hours and hours away. Arizona to Michigan. And this year, I'm experiencing that again. Another sweet friend of mine, moving away. It's almost like, as soon as I find that one person who I just really connect with, who is my kindred spirit, they are ripped from me. Three years ago, I was experiencing our first couple of months in a new city in the fall of that year. It's just been a constant, recycling of change.
On top of all of this change with friendships, I've also moved out of our first home. The home we brought Eden home to, where we decorated her first nursery and where we spent all of our "first" family moments. It all happened so fast. But now that it's over, I think I'm processing it all. I took a picture of the inside of our pantry, where I wrote on the wall, on April 25, 2012-- "God bless this house. Love, Joshua, Heather, Hartley (our pup) & Peanut (baby in the belly)." Both Joshua and I were so busy preparing the house for the close of sale that we didn't get to say goodbye to it together. And I wouldn't change our decision for the world. But it is still just so, so weird that other people are living in our home. Well, our old home.
In addition to all of this, I weaned our sweet girl. It was time to stop nursing. She wasn't interested anymore. It was so bittersweet, but it was time.
Joshua reminded me last night to go easy on myself because all of this change is just now catching up with me and it's taking it's toll. It's time to de-stress and experience some calm in my life. Just like the coming season, when the sun goes down earlier and we go to bed a little earlier. This is a really weird season, even with all of the exciting things to come. I'm thankful that in every season, I know Who is predictable. Who knows what's to come. Because I really don't.
Last fall, only 3 weeks after giving birth to Eden, one of my closest friends here moved away. And not just an hour away, hours and hours away. Arizona to Michigan. And this year, I'm experiencing that again. Another sweet friend of mine, moving away. It's almost like, as soon as I find that one person who I just really connect with, who is my kindred spirit, they are ripped from me. Three years ago, I was experiencing our first couple of months in a new city in the fall of that year. It's just been a constant, recycling of change.
On top of all of this change with friendships, I've also moved out of our first home. The home we brought Eden home to, where we decorated her first nursery and where we spent all of our "first" family moments. It all happened so fast. But now that it's over, I think I'm processing it all. I took a picture of the inside of our pantry, where I wrote on the wall, on April 25, 2012-- "God bless this house. Love, Joshua, Heather, Hartley (our pup) & Peanut (baby in the belly)." Both Joshua and I were so busy preparing the house for the close of sale that we didn't get to say goodbye to it together. And I wouldn't change our decision for the world. But it is still just so, so weird that other people are living in our home. Well, our old home.
In addition to all of this, I weaned our sweet girl. It was time to stop nursing. She wasn't interested anymore. It was so bittersweet, but it was time.
Joshua reminded me last night to go easy on myself because all of this change is just now catching up with me and it's taking it's toll. It's time to de-stress and experience some calm in my life. Just like the coming season, when the sun goes down earlier and we go to bed a little earlier. This is a really weird season, even with all of the exciting things to come. I'm thankful that in every season, I know Who is predictable. Who knows what's to come. Because I really don't.
