The Calm

Writing is a weird thing. I've often heard that the more you write the more you write, and the less you write the less you write. I find it true. I think when you are postpartum there is just this weird stage where you just don't have much to say. Life is an endless sea of diapers and days are monotonous. I feel bad when I say that, almost as if it is declaring that I am not happy, but that is not the case. It couldn't be farther from the truth. It's just the way it is.

Here we are in the third week of January and this year is already looking really bright to me. I have a laundry list of goals and dreams and I feel like this is finally going to be my year. I turn 30 in March and I am honestly super excited to say goodbye to my 20's. They were good years but they were also so hard, too. In my 20's I found love, got married, moved several times, experienced my spouse's job loss, moved in with family, moved to a different state, found out I was pregnant twice, had two babies, bought our first home and eventually sold it, and built another house from the ground up. 

The years have been eventful and full and I am so thankful for all that God has taught me. The last couple of weeks I've been talking with a few girlfriends about how hard 2014 was for so many people I know. It only confirmed how much trials are essential for our growth. I definitely find myself attracted to people who can talk about their problems and who can be vulnerable about them. I'm thankful for the highs and lows over the last ten years and know I am who I am today because of them and I appreciate when others can share about their pain, losses, and hopes, too. 

So here we are, the calm after the storm, five months postpartum. The craziness has quieted and the newest addition sleeps through the night and is in bed with her big sister at a reasonable time. It's back to life like how it was before she came and it was just the three of us. But yet now we are four. And upstairs sleeping there are two babies instead of one. Everything is so much less overwhelming this time and the adjustment as a whole has been pretty smooth sailing. 

I know I will look back on this season and miss it one day. 
Trying to soak it all in and not miss a thing.